I'd Like to Bear My Testimony That I Know Zantac is True

I've had a rough couple of weeks, mainly because my baby had been having a rough couple of weeks. It was a wrestling match getting her to latch on and stay latched on even though I knew I was prepping her for perfect latching, she wasn't tongue-tied, etc. She was really gassy, so I cut out dairy, chocolate, spicy-ness, onions and garlic (all of my favorite things...boo) but nothing really improved. I was a wreck--so tired and emotionally drained and worried. It had been 2 weeks and she was still several ounces under her birth weight. She wasn't sleeping well and was never content like my other babies had been. I've been really lucky to have great, easy babies (with the exception of trying to get Ruby to nurse, which is a whole different blog post.)

She had a hard time eating, sleeping, and just...existing, it seemed. Like I said, I thought it was gas until a couple of days ago, when suddenly it hit me: "Duh. Acid reflux." She's only my third child to have it, you think I would be more cognisant of the symptoms. Anyway, I got her into the doc last night, took a late trip to the pharmacy, got her to ingest the nasty medicine and she's like a new baby. She's suddenly like her sisters as babies: sweet and good and easy. I know it's only been like 15 hours but I finally feel like she's mine, whereas a couple of days ago, I was looking down at this skinny, undernourished (because she won't eat), screaming, shrieking, clawing, red faced tiny baby and thinking "Did they switch her in the hospital with my real baby? Does this little person even belong to me?" It sounds horrible to say but even though I knew I loved her, I wasn't sure I was "liking" her enough and I was ridden with guilt. I just had never experienced a baby as challenging as this and was really having a hard time with it. But last night I gave her some Zantac and she ate and ate and ate, and went right to sleep, slept good chunks at night, ate really good at night (which was always our worst time) and has been a sweety AND smiled at me this morning and napping and calm and observant and sleepy and awake and not a peep have I heard from her. *deep breath* I can breathe again.